May be I'm wrong ?!

God, whats going On...!

 

I couldn't do anything !

I'm out of mind.

My mind swirls like a whirl in a pool 

It goes there, it goes here

It goes out of control.

Many and many things just pass through my mind

But i couldn't figure it out as WHAT THEY ARE !

Something striking like a flash

Just like a lightning

But what is that ???

Man , I ....

    got bored up with all !!!

Daily the same time table follows

   "The same Sun rise and the same Sun set"

     But atleast they are good to see

     and gives a pleasant Orangy feel !

Other than that, 

     Why am i waking up ?!

     Why am i eating ?!
     Why am i going college ?!
     Why am i coming home back ?!
     Why am i sleeping ?!
     Why am i continuing all these for all these yeears ?!
   
More naturally , everyone does so !!

But... I have a question now ...
   "is that only i'm thinking such or everyone thinks the same?
Well , i know only about me and so, now i continue.

     What am i made for ?!
     Why am i made for  ?!
     Where am i made for?!
                             -----No, i don't need the answer as Earth ! DAMN it !

Really i got bored up , hooked up, freaked up and fooled up.
I guess , the next thing i must do myself is ,
just hang up to the ceiling ! 
                            ------Not a crazy thing !

     Why can't i be a normal person ?!
     Why can't i be like everyone in my family ?!

"They all grew up, studied something, got a job, got married,
 blessed with little ones, continues their family,
 later they'll die one day !!!"

Now see that, their circle is so small ! Just their family.
Nowadays , they are hardly seen and hardly in touch.
They may come for a family function once an year,
And by that time, they are good !

"They talk good, They smile good,
And finally , they bid good byes !"

Now they can be seen only by the next year or so...
And sure , we'll be awaiting their arrival
Atleast, they come once an year ! uuuff!!

So thus,
            "they are produced"
And then,
            "they produce"
Later,
            "they perish"

And who knows !, if  there is a re-birth
They may come again . . . .  ho ho ho !!

So, is this life ?!
    I couldn't understand how they are enjoying ?!!
    Hmmm ,  actually , are they enjoying...??

Now , what is enjoying or enjoyment ?
How does it feel ?!

Now, i believe, if one gets satisfied with a thing, he'll never go for it again.
b'coz, satisfaction comes only when a thing is completely full filled.

And now, i have read in many novels and also heard it many times that,
"Acouple having sex is always quoted as ""couple enjoys"" "
But now , note this , if they really get enjoyed, they"ll never go for it again.
But every night they do the same
Untill they coudn't do it anymore or if they get bored up!

Now note this,
    "they haven't stopped 'cos they got satisfied , but they got bored.
So, when can one get fullfillment ? And in what way ?

Coming to me, whoa ! whoa ! wait, wait,wait !
Now i got something struck in my mind.
There are 2 possible ways to leave a thing,
    1.Once you get satisfied
    2.Once you get bored up

Okay lets continue,
        How can i become a state of enjoyable...?
        I mean , how to figure out what'll make me enjoyable ?!
Naturally , i'm a kind of person, who gets bored easily !
I can't hang up with a single thing always! My mind changes always!
Of coure, everyone's mind changes with their age and experience !
But upto me, i always get my mind changed up, when i get bored up .
Now, is there any moment of getting full satisfied....nope, not at all !!

"i don't know why am i having a bike ?
 i don't know why am i having a mobile?
 i don't know why am i having lot many things?
 and why and what am i doing?!"

Of course,
"bike is to ride, mobile to speak,message, chat..."
But Why........?
Can't i live without them ?!
Of course I can ! But i couldn't leave that also.
So its evident that, i'm neither in that extreme nor in this extreme.
And jus hanging in the middle.

"Does anyone and everyone think like this, or is it so that i'm going mad or psychic?!"

Now, see i've written five-six pages.
But what for?!
Why should i write ?
Is it that i'm going to publish?
Is it that i wish you to read and give ur comments?!
Is it that i wish to show that "i can write for pages"
Am i going to be a writer?!
Come on, i only have questions and no answers!
Now Shavin becomes a question mark!

Now , after writing these six pages,
My mind says to me, "man its enough ! , the one who reads this will get bored if u continue anymore " .
And now it adds that already they got bored and vex".
Oh now , come on, is that the voice of my mind or its of Yours ?!

Again the Question arises...?...!
'Cos the title itself is a Question !

                                                                         ~ shavin earthy